one for the night.

its hard to sleep.

when i am reminded everytime i switch on this orange light.


nights will pass through, heavily with memories that could've fooled me to believing once again how it could have been. what i should have done. what i shouldnt have. but even so with all actions and unspoken words from me to you,

i still cannot live with the idea. too young to care, or insecurity that never ends. either way tell me now how am i to change for you, i would love to know so i could be a better person for you.

i would scratch back every memory in the past year, every single thing i learnt after you. just to be at the same spot i was. knowing how you were and how i was. and i would go to my past person whisper when i am deep in sleep.

to just believe, to just follow through with this orange light.

and just feel.