cerita kampung den #2

Ada satu kali, abah datang melawat kita dua beradik kat kampung. dengan baju kerja. aku rasa, mama tak tau. tapi aku ingat lagi hari tu sebab aku gaduh dengan abang. entah pasal apa tapi nak ikut cerita aku marahlah jugak rasanya sebab aku cakap babi kat dia for the first and the last time dalam hidup.

so i was upstairs watching the yard through the wooden windows and i saw my dad get out of his car. i wanted to go downstairs but i knew abang was there. so i took a good 10 minutes before i finally collected the nerve to go. i stood by the top stair and saw my brother talking to abah at the living room and he looked sad.

my dad cakap, "ain cakap apa dekat abang?" and i stood silent, suddenly finding my toes fascinating. he continued, "jangan cakap lagi yea.. tak baik.." i nodded slowly then practically ran to my dad, hugged him.

it was confusing, we were too young to understand why we couldn't just be at home. we didnt know where abang kimi was, why he isnt there with us.. we never did ask like it was an unspoken rule to not say anything about it. even now, because it's such a bad memory not being with your mama and abah for ages in kid years. but we understood it was a heart-breaking situation for all members of the family even though we never talked about it.

i remember abah's face that time. he looked so miserable. but he tried to smile anyway with those sad eyes. my abang and i we started fighting cos we didnt want to share our hug with abah. shoving each other and pulling abah's hand, plus i was still annoyed with him. stupid brother.

gently abah said, "jangan gaduh-gaduh, kalau abah mati nanti macamana..?"

immediately we stopped. hugged him tightly like we'll never let go. because we love abah so much. we would fight for his love.